[29 Jun 2005|10:31pm] i have a xanga now. if you want it, ask for it. comment(6)

[08 Jun 2005|05:35pm] [ music : Scary Kids Scaring Kids; Sink and Die] so ren & eddie are trying to hook me up with this boy called Danny. supposedly he thinks i'm "hot" and have a "cute personality". he's 17. hm. it's a bit weird. i don't want to go out with someone i don't even know. then again, i just want a boyfriend who'd CARE. too bad the one i want doesn't. the math final was easy. i completely forgot i had the biology final today as well, so i wasn't prepared. no school tomorrow. i can't wait. maha & i are going on the train again. we haven't been on it in about a month! that's just crazy. lalalala. i'm on the phone with jamre right now. he makes me laugh loaaaadssss. kbye. comment(5)

[07 Jun 2005|06:17pm] [ music : Self Against City; Speechless] it takes me 9 pills to drown him out of my head. if you had one wish, what would you wish for? to go back to how it was 4 months ago. hm. maybe even 2 years ago. i had a panic attack during gym today. i'd rather not say why. then i passed out when i got home. i don't know what's wrong with me.. it was well fun after school today. stepped in a puddle of cow shit. ha. then maha did it 'cause "all the cool kids do it." fun. PLAAANSSS: thursday; village with Jitzu. (maha) saturday; NJ with my uncle. hair cuts with michelle. hair dye with michelle. kenny's show? idk. i can't wait for school to be over. math final tomorrow. i should go study. bye. comment(3)

[06 Jun 2005|04:19pm] [ music : The Blood Brothers; Trash Flavored Trash] i'm a bit proud of myself. i haven't done "it" in a VERY long time. about 2 months. i was trying to figure out why.. & it turns out that it's the same reason why i am on medication now. because of a BOY. everytime i got an urge to "do it", i'd think of him, and stop. and it's the same in this case. but now he is gone. and i'll try my best to control myself. no school this thursday. maha & i are going to go buy water guns & bring them to school. watch yo' backs, kids. :] i can't stop thinking about him. i should go take a sleeping pill & not wake up until tomorrow morning. except i have to study for the final exams. :[! bye. comment(8)

[06 Jun 2005|06:29am] so these tears keep falling; i'm drowning in my very own misery. i'm sinking, can't you see? standing neck deep in your ridicule. it's time for both of us to stand up for what we said we would. you're not one of us.

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